You once said you loved me
But your words tell a different story
Daddy do you really know me
Did you ever take fifteen minutes
To ask me
Daddy, did you know that I am everything you hate?
Daddy, I’ve tried to hide myself
Put on the masks
But in time I’ve learned
The more I play your games
The more of me that dies
The more I want to die
But in time I have learned
That I indeed want to live
And that your thoughtless words
I choose to no longer let them keep me captive
And I can now look at my reflection
And I can now dream my own dreams
And I can now be free of guilt
But, daddy more importantly
I can tell you the truth of who I am
And I am everything you hate
Daddy, I don’t believe in Jesus or god
I faked that too
Daddy, I worship the Goddess
I celebrate the changing of the seasons and of the moon
Daddy, I don’t believe in sin, Satan, or salvation
Daddy, to you, I’m a heathen, witch, and an idolater
A sinner deserving of hell fire, brimstone, judgment,
and eternal punishment in the lake of fire
Daddy, I don’t like guns
I think gun control is good
Daddy, I hate war
I think peace is possible
Daddy, I like the Earth
I think she ought to be protected
Daddy, I like piercing and tattoos
I think they can make someone beautiful and unique
Daddy, I’m pro-choice
I think women are smart enough to make decisions about their bodies
Daddy, I like marijuana
I think they ought to legalize it
Daddy to you, my mind is so open my brains fell out
Daddy to you, I’m un-American, a freak, a tree hugger, a baby killer, and a pot head
Daddy, go ahead and say it, “Danielle, pull your head out of your ass.”
Daddy, I am a lesbian
I’ve been in love with women, dated some, and made love to a few
Daddy, I love the way women look, they are beautiful
And, I like the they kiss
Daddy, I love the feel of women’s skin on my own
And, the feel of their breasts
And, the way they make me quiver, and the way they respond to my touch
Daddy, I also want to marry a woman and have a family with her
Daddy, to you I’m vile, a faggot, a dyke, a sodomite
I cry sometimes, cause daddy, don’t you see
I am everything you hate
See, daddy, I’ll admit I’m wrong sometimes
And, daddy you are wrong sometimes too
Daddy, I wish you could feel how I feel
Daddy, I want to make you cry
Make you listen
Daddy, when you say those mean words
I want you to feel as hurt and vulnerable as I do
Daddy, there have been times I’ve wanted to bash your face in
And to kick you in the balls
Daddy, I want you to feel disgusting every time I look at you
I want to make you feel like dying
Daddy, I want make fun of you
And, daddy I want to tell you, “Go to hell, you mother fucking ass hole!”
Daddy, I want to be able to call you daddy
And, daddy most of all I want to make you love me
wow. touched. i definitely have something similar to this with a few differences... my house is a house with my mom + 7 other people and people who visit often. my father is someone who is the opposite of me and who lives in a different state. This poem almost brought me to tears. very very good job.
I know the pain you conjur through these words. I feel them suffocate my skin. Choking me like they do you. Similar paths colliding.
I love the way yuo express yourself. I am truly amazed.
Hey Dani, its matthew :D. I have always loved the words you have to say and especially something were you just put your total self on the line. I also love the approch you took with this, kinda the jab and turn approch well Hope to hear more soon hun