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After Sophistication, Comes Death
She was too sophisticated
for a man like me. That is why
it hurt so much when she
left. There was no bleeding
but nails struck deep into
my heart. Distraught and torn
to pieces I turned to a woman
where there could be
no love. Sex was unsatisfying
although not
because she was not good. I
simply had no emotional
attachment. I could not wait,
hurting her the same way I
was left to my own suffering;
thus before things got too
serious I broke away
from the relationship. I thought
she would be okay. She had
my house, the furnishings, and
close to twenty thousand dollars
still in the bank account. I wanted
nothing except to mourn my own
loss. Six days after my leaving
she was found dead. A drug
overdose and apparent
to the coroner – a suicide. There
was no indication on my part
she had grown so attached -
so quickly. Again I was seriously
upset, and someday I may
have the courage to follow her.
Life-Scars
You live and the collection grows. You feel mugged. One breath at a time "Tired of living, afraid of dying." Or like me, wait long enough, it'll happen. As we age, tragedies personsonal or heard/reported, amass. I try to make lives better - if you are rich send Jason enough to keep the site open - see. Me looking out - let me get these two jabs. i'll be at it again, most likely. Who said, "If you love what you do it is not work." I love writing.
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Marc Anthony and several
Marc Anthony and several other singers. It has also been penned, "...find something you love to do and you will never work." I will think about the other request. Thank you again, always insightful.
May you never find that
May you never find that courage! People do the dumbest things the way they deal with thier pain is not our problem.leave the guilt where it belongs and enjoy the freedom from being held hostage to another's unhealthy attachment. We should never depend on another so much that we loose the ability to stand on our own. Sad write. Thanks for sharing.
Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS
"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."
I have no fear of death. My
I have no fear of death. My life has been full of rewards and treasures. I am wealthy and have more comforts than I can ever use. All of it means nothing to me. There have been times where I would have traded everything for a single hug. This was one of them. Thanks for your comments Smoothie, as always, a wonderful wisp of peace and encouragement.
“But in the end one needs more courage to live than to kill himself.”
― Albert Camus
Painful story, Tom. Good to
Painful story, Tom. Good to see you digging in the deep. Hope you are well These days!
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The deep is sometimes so
The deep is sometimes so hideous that I am afraid to look at it. There is hostility, danger, intimidation and often an abyss that is extremely menacing and life threatening. I have made a living out of looking into these places; although, they were never born from my depths. Now it appears that I am stuck in one of these ominous chasms where I have often rescued others. I am nervous about “digging deep,” for fear I will pull all my patients into this foreboding pit of despair with me. Still, words from you are always so supportive of me, no matter where my emotions take me. Thank you – healingwoman.