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I have a situation and need some advice.  We all know that I have chosen to just wait and not really be involved in a relationship.  However I am beginning to think that the creator has an odd sense of humor because just when I said no it’s not going to happen this person who I’ve been talking back and forth with who is also a female veteran like me mentions coming to my town this Saturday and that she is going to call me while she’s in town so we can hang.  I have to admit it was almost like one of those Suzanne Westenhoffer moments where she doing the bit about Martina Navratilova.  You know the “ I love my girlfriend, I love my girlfriend I love my girlfriend, oh my god what’s my girlfriend’s name?”  Thing is I don’t have a girlfriend and I am of the point of freaking out.  I don’t want to be involved with anyone, but she is someone who how can I say it.  My sister who is straight saw her for the first time today and was like damn she’s hot. She’s older than I am and if there were ever a time when I could look at the creator and smile over getting what I asked for it would be to her. She’s a muscular butch, lives 10 minutes from me, and fits all of my lists. However I am totally scared. Anyone got any advice. I know yes if I do decide I’ll take it slow, however I am also thinking about telling her that as she knows I just got out of a relationship that ended horribly, is it okay if her and I hang out as friends and get to know each other first.  Sometimes life is confusing, but me I’m just confused.