Like a thousand masks you presented yourself to me
A person with no identity
Not a care of the world
Not a care to me.
Looking deep inside you would be looking at a mirror
A mirror that reflects off another
And another and another
And then another.
Innocent as you may seem to me and many others
Your heart is not as what it seems
Makes one question the colour and the temperature
Or the overall existence of such an object.
However cool as you may be
To me and to those who are close to me
Your hatred fly at me like dark claws
Clinging on every word every movement every part of me.
My anger towards you grows each day
Like a storm you circled above me
Driving me slowly to insanity
And act like someone I am not.
Though I cant say this to you in your face
I can say it in this poem
How much I HATE YOU
and despise you.
You make me look low and small
Like a pest that deserves to be squashed
You've created a monster that will haunt me
When you've created ME.
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I hate you for who you are
I hate you for what you've done
I hate you for how you've hurt me
I hate you for I once loved you.
I know this feeling well and it is not a pleasant one. Read "Paradox" from my page. That was said after 24 years of taking the kind of pain you write about here. You have a way of expressing yourself that is soothing as well as revealing. It helps to write. Please post more. I'll be back frequently.
Luv,
Jessica