~Contradictions in the Shadows~

       Surrounded, & connected, & yet, still so alone,
      waiting to be called by You, ready to come home,
   & yet, I know the purpose for my life has yet to be
fulfilled, & still, I wait on You, bound, & yet, set free~

    Wandering, yet being led, You draw me into Your will,
    I enter in, then run again, afraid to drink my fill,
  & still, when I am hiding, Your voice never does depart,
  I hear it in the shadows, in the corners of my heart.

         In those shadows,light still enters in,
             though darkness lingers on,
         freed from the places I have been,  
          in my weakness, I'm made strong,
  & yet, I wait for total victory & know it's real,
unable to just enter in, lingering things yet to heal.

        Still, there are times of basking        
         in the light, 'til I am blinded,
           overjoyed just to be yours,
           until, once more, reminded            
       of all the walls still yet to fall,
            I long for total release,
     & in the shadows, Lord, there You are,
         washing over me with peace.

   So though I know You're in control, Lord,
              even in the dark,
    when I can't see, please remind me,
            even by just a spark,
   that Your light is still ignited in me,  
           & You are always here
   in the shadows of the longest nights,
        in the courage in the fear.
                   *~*~*
                                      ~By Anastazia Rowe~

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Daniel (Bill) Straite's picture

This is a sweet poem. I know how you feel about the surrendering thing, it is difficult. This seems really honest, and it really seems like you actually understand what you write about, I like it. Keep the work, I hope to see more of your stuff in the future! Blessings!