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There comes a time in a person's life where they can't seem to find themself. I've been there and somehow I have found myself there again. Each day seems to be getting harder knowing that I dont want to feel the way I do. This emotion is just too powerful for me to conquer it. Sometimes I feel like maybe my best times were with him, yet I know they weren't since there weren't any good times. Other times I find myself dwelling on the memories of the past and it hurts because I can't keep my mind off of how it hurt. I don't think he knows how much he meant to me and I guess it doesn't matter, but I just can't seem to shake the thought anymore. I have always been told it's okay to cry, but crying isn't getting a person anywhere knowing that I can't change the past and what has been said. Lately I have found myself struggling through this feeling I have. I don't want this feeling. I've had it before except this time it's stronger and I don't want it. It has hurt me too many times and I don't want to have to bare that hurt any longer. Not now. Maybe that sounds immature, but I'm not. I'm just scared. The fact is the one I used to love will never see this and the one I find myself falling for will never know the truth. We'll both be better off without him knowing. This pain is just unbarable and I know that it will get better someday, but I'm not living in the future I'm living today and today is all that matters. I tell myself it will be okay , but all I'm doing is lying to myself because it's not okay. I know how I feel and to know I can never tell him makes me feel like a liar, but it's better this way because he belongs with her. It's the way it should be and I'm not going to get in the way.