My heart has many questions
Always have a lot of doubts
About my existence, about the world
The list goes on
I always feel dissatisfied with my answers
It makes me ask more questions
I am always searching for the answers
My head started to spin around these questions
I was not happy with any of these answers
I was discussed with my spiritual teacher
She advised me not to ask any more questions
And have trust in God and all my doubts would clear.
I did not believe in her but I slowly concentrated on my mind
And tried to listen to my own mind, my own consciousness
Slowly my questions in my mind reduced and I spend more
Time listening to my own mind
I noticed that the amount of questions in mind is nullified
And I got a feeling that I am getting some of the answers
I also felt happier and more confident
And able to move forward in the right path
I realised that my ego was stopping me in finding the real
Happiness and always concentrated on asking question
Rather than listening to the answers which did not give me any satisfaction
The more I am dissatisfied the more questions arose in me
I understand that my real happiness lies within me
And if I need to achieve the real happiness
I need to forget the ego and other vices
Then I will be able to identify the real happiness
Adikaran 08/03/14.