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I just want to feel. Don't want to be numb. I just want emotion. Not this overwhelming calm. I want to cry. Not just sit here and lie. Waiting to die. Run away. Non-existing pain. Still feels like rain. Driving me mad. This nothing-ness insane. Inside I yell. Want something to scream. I want to feel something. Besides the emptiness in me. Give me something to tell. Give me something to show. I want to feel heart beating. Instead a cold breeze. Not even a storm. That's all within me. Day to day. Routine play. Day to day. Over and over. A circle, a cycle. Fuck, just connect. Be a human being. Socialize and feel. Not smile and pretend. Disconnected again. Just reach for me. Be the hand i grasp. For a second I feel. For a moment I crave. A stop in time. Than its gone again. Fucking crazy. I am going berserk. I want to throw away. This useless breathe. Why am I living. I can't even feel. I try to be me. I try to live. I try to feel. I can't connect. I don't know how to act. Hurting others. Hurting me. Just stop the madness!