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Sometimes you watch a movie or hear a song, you become overwhelmed with clarity and feel whats inside yourself a little more pure than maybe even your comfortable with. Raw emotion pulled to the surface when your least expecting it. I find myself in a position of that exactly that. Faced with parts of myself I may not like seeing, small portions of who I am that I hide from those close to me. A longing to purge the sickness that we all hide. Everyone has skeletons in their closet, we all have things that make us feel whole, but equally we have what makes us feel empty and it can be hard to ignore.

That weight in your chest, That pressure that loosens your grip on the need to wash yourself in tears.
The ache in your stomach that only loss of something so dear can produce.
A pain that if asked to describe you would be lost in your words.

Amazing how simple it is to experience these feelings yet true happiness seems to require so much work. Pain comes so swiftly and without effort yet I must bleed and sweat to crack a smile.

I love to pretend I'm so simple, I love to exude the impression that I have thick skin or my emotions don't just boil right under the surface. How has mankind become so disgusted with expression of themselves.

Why can't a man shed tears without judgement or bare his soul without being left to the elements to fend for himself.

I as most, feel that longing, That endless need for love and compassion. I want desperately to give myself, to pour my love into another.

I find myself cringing at the site of the way we as humans treat each other.

People show false emotion and pity those around them to feel something close to being decent people as they have been raised to perceive them.

To err is human is far to simple, To Lie, Steal, Cheat, Judge, Distract, Hurt and most of all Hate is Human. To Love is just simply something else, Something more and something I wish to experience in it's true form.

I HATE looking inside myself to see all this things apply to me as they do most. I feel filled with HATE too, I know LOVE is there, I can feel it always but it's such a struggle to express it and such a struggle to give it away.

I gave myself the title of Poly but perhaps I should find just one person to exchange unmitigated love with first before I assume I can even make room for another. Of course I love my friends but I know anyone reading this on here knows this is not the love i speak of.

I long to feel that warmth again. To feel myself bathed in happiness.

When someone looks inside you and sees someone they trust with everything they have to offer, They see someone who is without flaw and perfection for all the ways it can be described.

I have Loved once in my life, Truly LOVED. Been in LOVE, Said those three words to another. However I have HATED many times and I feel that imbalance weighs heavy on me, Each day pushes my body into a twisted expression of it.

How do you slow it all down?

I suppose you don't....