That word left my heart hanging
wondering when the day would come
when I could say that to you
Cried for days
Swallowed down alcohol
and my soul
Heaven needed a protector...
they took mine away...
Desperate for those yesterdays
not remembering about tomorrow
Thought it was so easy
to be prepared for your final days
Hell, can't believe I lied to myself in that way
The yelling, the heartaches
The most important memories
were your lessons
I'm sorry
I couldn't stay in that black hole
mourning for you
My biggest mistake was my own heartbreak
Don't regret any minute of it
You and your death made me who I am today
I wish I could have you and that lesson together
Wishful thinking was almost the death of me
Heaven needed a protector
I could understand why...
Please take care of him, I say
When my final days come,
I want him to be the one
to protect me on that day.....
WOW....it really makes me relate, I admire how you expressed your situation in this poem..