I miss you Mammie.
My older sister, friend and confidant.
You have been gone 6 months as of today.
Some people say I am still grieving.
I still cry often.
I wish you were here.
You wouldn't have forgotten my birthday on yesterday.
You celebrated it even when I was deployed in other countries.
I'm angry that you didn't take better care of yourself.
You always tried to take care of everyone else around you.
I haven't made tea since you've been gone because I know I will cry.
I'm doing my best to raise your niece.
She loves and misses you too.
I miss you Mammie.
However I know God had plans for you.
I love you sister, friend. Always will.
Author's Notes/Comments:
My sister died in our home on May 3rd of this year 2024. The EMTs worked on her for a long time and couldn't bring her back. I knew when they brought in a chaplain that she was gone. My daughter blamed herself because they got into an arguement right before she died and my sister had heart issues. I told my daughter that it wasn't her fault. I really miss my older sister. My younger sister hardly even acknowledges me unless she wants something. She even missed my birthday and rarely called my older sister when she was alive but made a big deal at visitation and her service. Yet I'm the one who is ending up paying for everything. I just want to cry. I want to scream. I don't want to be the older sister now. Yet I have to be.
