Things Now

What happened to the way things use to be?

Talking on a warm day by the dock.

Laughing at a small joke no one else would get.

Being in our own world.

What happened to all that?

Everything that made life fine.

Everything that made me smile inside when I was sad.

Those smiles were my hope.

Those smiles saved me.

When I needed some to catch me when I would fall,

I would reach out to them and only them.

Don’t you see how much it meant to me?

What happened to all that?

Things now are different.

Things now aren’t the same.

I looked at all around me,

And put myself to blame.

I don’t have you here to tell me I’m wrong.

To applaud me when I’m right.

To give me a hug as shelter,

On a long windy night.

What am I to do?

Pretend that everything’s the same?

To figure out why your really smiling at me,

Is to put myself to shame.

It’s tearing me up inside.

I don’t know how I’ve been going on.

I don’t know what to say to you.

So I search the radio for a song.

But even that’s not enough.

Because its not you.

So I’m hopeless now.


And I don’t know what to do.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

To the 'Bighead' I use to know.

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