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I'm lingering
I can't explain to anyone how I feel
I'm in limbo
I can't beleive this reality is real
As she pushes me away again
As I am concerned even more
As yard seems more like a option to me now
Debt before I even make anything out of myself.
I am crying! I am screaming! but only inside myself
I need help!
I feel so empty, so I fill myself with food
I am trapped in this never ending cycle of self abuse
I want to be free enough to do the things I want.
I want to be able to make moves.
I'm stuck!
And she doesn't care
And she doesn't talk to me about my circumstances
She has faded like an old rose in my eyes
Her carelessness has lost the element of surprise
I am used to being left to wander into my own structure of life.
I am used to being a responsible seventeen year old
I am used to expressing my emotions to me______
AND ME ALONE!
I still cannot call this place my home.
I feel as though I should have came from another.
Wrestling with anger feeling a fight
Wanting to explode
Tell her to leave me alone
If she ain't my mother
Then this ain't my home
Fantasies of running away is all I can afford.
She brought me to the land of oppurtunities
To leave me to a failing destiny
I feel as though this world will get the best of me
If my determination is being beaten everyday I try
Maybe my minds motivation is all a narrow lie
Maybe I am meant to be regular
That I am not sure of
Regular is what's next to me
Regular is never something I could be
But with the odds stacked against me how can I succeed?
How can I try if when I beg and pleed
I am being ignored
So I kneal on this floor
I try to pray, but because of my sins I feel God isn't hearing me.
Because I love too hard, try to long, keep too sad, want to much.
I am just another one of the 12 million Undocumented.
The ones with families, the ones with bills, the ones who have no other place to go.
I am one with a dream
My dream is so hard to fulfill
Because I am one of those 12 million nameless faces.
It's not my fault that I came here.
It's not my fault!
Yet still I suffer!
Yet still she determined my own fate.
Yet still my dreams are on delay.
Yet still I smile and cry in the silence of myself.
Yet still I secretly ask for help.
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