I keep thinking

You were my Roots, Rock, Reggae

At a time when I needed a cure

You melted my heart

Set my soul on fire

And I began to love you more

You were my journal

I told you my secrets

I told you how I felt

You were my love

You were my saviour

But you eventually started to rebel

I don't like feeling hurt

I don't like feeling insecure

But your words, and actions make me this way

Make me want to walk through this door.

A union is not just you, and me loving each other at times

It is a sacred love

Which I cannot define.

Still I find my heart is broken

And I am laying on regret

Late at night I wipe my eyes

I cry, and wonder, and fret.

You use to to be my medecine

But now there is no cure for my disease.

I want to leave.

Without the temptation of running back

I want to be loved unconditionally

I want to get the things you lack.

Communication to me is key

Lately I've been so alone

I keep looking at my phone.

Hoping you'll take a minute to call

I keep crying at nights

Waiting for you to catch my fall.

I keep feeling like the past three years have been a total waste

You keep running away, and expectting me to chase.

I try to communicate, but I am ignored in return.

I keep waiting finally for our relationship to burn.

I keep asking myself what did I do?

I thought we were soulmates; I was perfect for you

I keep puting me second, and you first.

I keep loving you more, and loving me worse.

I keep crying and begging the Lord for help.

I keep wondering is there someone else?

I keep imagining who she may be.

I keep thinking that she's prettier than me

I keep wondering why I love you,

I keep wishing I could stop

I keep clinging to this one way love

Like bleach clings to a mop.

I keep asking why everyone else is so proud of their girl

But you hide me like I'm hideous, and don't belong in your world.

I keep wondering why you hate me

I keep asking what I did?

I keep wondering if we'll reunite and get over all of this?

I keep wondering where you are

I keep wondering who your with

I keep wondering if your okay

I keep praying that you'll live.

I keep acting like your wife

When I feel I am not.

Lord knows when your mad at me it hits a certain spot.

I keep thinking should I try to communicate

I keep wondering will we be different

When were face to face?

I keep wondering did you fall out of love - true love never dies-

I keep trying to distinguish between your truth, and between you lies.

I keep feeling heartbroken

I am still so in love

I keep thinking things will change

So I won't be so attachted.

But in the mean time I can't get over you - my perfect match.

CRASH!

Everything went downhill

My heart to my stomach

My brain to my throat

I'm warming up

But your love is stil so cold.

I am sold by your tactics to drive me insane.

I can't deny the stabs in my heart - they are such precious pain.

Till that day when love will come

I will hold your name

CJWP my one and only

My pleasure, my pain

The reason for my sunshine

The reason for my rain

The reason why I am alone

And I am not ashamed.

The four letter word

Took hold of my world

And mash it up in vain

Now I will pray some more

That this heartache will change.

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