Suffocating in tears that the dreams have made,
taking little droplets of sadness to form a sea,
Despair has over flown the hope I could spare,
leaving nothing but these shadows that made me.
Look, watch, and stare, see how its been,
false hopes have overridden my escape,
leaving me like this, a fucking disgrace,
take a step back, see the smile on my face.
watch as I play pretend,
as I practice, in this place of faith,
watch the hate and sadness fall from my face,
but I warn you as I wipe it clear,
this is nothing but a shield of fear.
your making me go back to the place I left,
where theres nothings left but a small taste,
I'm melting into a pool, Myself I degrade,
watch me now as I fool this parade,
smile so sweetly, be happy today,
But nothing can stop me feeling so gray,
my lyrics are so false, they dangle so dreary,
dull and exposed to what they really are,
What they could of been, and what they should of been,
these words of a tasteless remedy and begotten melody,
With a Harmony formed from a choir of tears,
These chords struck by the fires of fears,
An endless fight after all of these years.
Take some time out, just take a moment,
Review, recollect and Remember,
Your not alone, not alone, just never alone,
no matter what or where you go,
to Far for you, to far for me,
I can't see how black the day can be,
I just live for the sake of living,
when I wish more then it could ever give me.
Maybe I should consider some other sort of relief,
another sort of forgiveness that doesn't consist of this belief,
without reopening these scars my arm has bled,
Fuck it, never mind, I'll make new ones instead.
huh?? wtf! may 25 07... how the hell did I miss this one???
sorry....
anyway... onto the belated comment. Dark as usual... and I guess thins are difficult in life again since you want to cut again... my advice... don't.
keep to the mudvayne and music and all... perhaps we should try somethin more uplifitin with a heavier beat and non suicidal lyrics (I could suggest some Nile perhaps...)
your lyrics and melodies are awesome... don't think em fake and never think yourself fake or degraded... keep the horns up my friend... perhaps in some new music you'll find a reason to not fake happiness for once...
rock on forever!
some music suggestions to keep those spirits up...
Dark Tranquillity
Melechesh
Dew Scented
Moonspell
Vader
Karl Sanders (not metal I know... but sweet calming middle eastern stuff that Nile's music is based upon)
L'ame Immortelle
hopefully this will bring some comfort in your life...