Many nights of tears being shed,
I decide to bleed instead,
No longer able to cry,
So now I must die,
To God I will pray no more,
Lucifer is now whom I adore,
Negative feelings on life,
Thoughts of ending it with a knife,
Five new slits each day,
Never a moment of feeling gay,
Some evenings I wish I were dead,
So through those nights I bled,
Shattered glass on my floor,
A whole new world on the other side of the door,
As the torture gives no sign of a time to cease,
I try to find some peace,
Attempts of trying to stay bold,
With this life I try to keep in my fist to hold,
Cuts, tears, scars, and blood,
My suicidal attempt turned to a dud,
Letting the razor decide my fate,
Becoming a demon's bait,
Never a time I am not weak,
I search for just a little peek,
To see what I would be if I were strong,
And it doesn't have to last long.