Redemption and regret

Can I be a better man today than I was yesterday?

This pile of mistakes around me makes me pray

Pray I that ill have the courage to face my reflection

And I’ll be able to raise my head to plot a new direction

Infections in my soul and in the relationships that I love

Have me shaking my head no and looking for answers above

Shove the shame into the trash is all I can do

Keep my focus on my task and not on losing you.

True words and better actions are my only consolation

Taking ever day as it comes and forgetting about my reputation

Sedation and neglect are the true adversaries to my progress

I can’t forget my goal less I regress

Mess it may be but this is still my life

I still yearn to succeed, maybe have some children and a wife

Strife and grief may be in store but it will worth it in the end

When I can say to my loving family and all my fabulous friends

Pretend if you wish, that this was always meant to be

I know that in order to get this, I had to beat my greatest enemy, me.

 
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Mone's picture

Really cool poem! Its kind of

Really cool poem! Its kind of sad that its usually us that defeat ourselves.