When I Go To Sleep

On countless times in the past I have been hurt so many times

My heart still bare those scars

I swore to myself to never be vulnerable like that again,

Never to give all that I’ve got, all that I am



But from out the blue a new thing arises

So real you wouldn’t believe and oh so true

Wanting to be all that I can be, wanting to be where she is

Nevertheless the distance between us remains a cliffhanger



Inevitability hangs over my head as I journey on this road

This road with no end, no solution

The thoughts of us together keep me yearning for more

Night after night since this feeling arose I can’t fall asleep like I use to

I have to just once have that thought to calm me down, let me relax



Sometimes I sit up straight in my bed and say these words:

“Fly me up to where you are, beyond the distant stars

I wish upon tonight to see you smile, If only for a while to know your there

A thought away is not far to where you are”



She can’t hear it, but surely I know it

That what I’m feeling is new and infatuating

Never felt this way before and never want it to end

I believe that miracles do happen and this is most probably one of them

But then again it couldn’t cause the way she feels isn’t out in the open.



What does she feel?, although the thought of me is on her mind ‘sometimes’

But what does she really feel?

The love in her life is close – not like me

The love in her life is there – not like me

The love in her life loves her – just like me



I didn’t wanto say it, but I do

Although this seems far-fetched I can’t deny what I feel inside

I am entitled to say what I feel, what I want, but what kind of repercussions will this bring forth?

This situation will re-evaporate forever – will never go away



But this is only how I feel, what does she feel

She has her love in her life – not like me

She has her love close to her – not like me

She knows what she wants – just like me



There! I said it from deep within

If only things could be different for me

But these feelings will stay here buried deep within

Till tonight when I go to sleep

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