It felt like I betrayed you but I did not even know you were still alive.
I mourned for you and blamed myself, but I still had to go on.
If I thought for one second that you were still alive,
I would have risked everything to come back and save you.
I do not know what you have had to go through these past three years,
I can only imagine the hell of it all.
I can’t blame you for your hatred against me.
You probably don’t believe me but it was true when I said I wanted to be with you forever.
You were my life and I felt like a shell after you were gone.