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I know this past year has been a learning experience.  Some things although they were hard to realize, I'm so thankful I finally have.  I finally figured out that what I thought I had, were the things I lacked the most.  And I find it hard to accept 'it', but I'm finding it even harder to find 'it'.  I'm still searching for whatever 'it' may be.  



By willingly spending a lot of time on my own, I spent a lot of time looking at the past decisions I've made.  I think many of the things I think are right, not only at the time but right for the future as well, are wrong.  It was a really surreal moment to see how I make choices for all the wrong reasons.  These wrong choices and the results of them, are the things that keep me inside-keep me from what I want.



This year I saw first hand, that people really do hurt the ones the love the most- the most.  I still don't know why but we all do.  I guess it's because we think that love is stonger than the pain we cause by what we do.  I guess we assume that 'I'm sorry' is enough to erase the hurt, but it's not.  It never will be.  It never should be.  I wish that the clock could roll back a year, and I could then maybe undo all that I've done wrong. But it won't and never will.  If 'you get what you give' is true, wow I'm in store for a whole lot this coming year.



Even with all these lessons learned, will this year be better?

All I can really do is hope.



As the end of one year comes to a close and as the ball drops on a new one, I put a smile on my face.  It's all I can really show the world.  Even it it's forced that's what I'll show them until it's real.  Cause this new year for me is a new chance to change for the right reasons.  I'll just put the past behind me as if it were just a fleeting winter season. The past was cold.  I can already feel the warmth of next year as it waits on my doorstep.



I'm going to have a change of mind, cause I've felt a change in my heart.  It's just too bad that I waited a whole year, to forgive myself and others.  So this year I'll put my past to my advantage.  I'll put it to use and try to find some peace within.  Maybe within I'll find a way to get out.



This past year has made me, for the first time, to change for all the right reasons.



Even will all these lessons learned, will this year be better?

All I can really do is hope.



All I can really do is try.  All I can really do is change