If I knew your love was true
I would bear all of your babies
pink and blue
if I knew your waters ran deep
that your values on life were level not a steep-
slide of immaturity that stability can’t grip nor keep
if I knew you could see the inner me that defies age and decay
that the sun can’t damage or times wither away
and love me past the flower of my years
as I bloom inwardly
and fade outwardly
If I knew you were not as fickle as the wind
or as the clock ticks on, and often needs to be rewound
or as the Texas weather in a day it flits as a feather
unpredictably it goes
no one really knows where it will land in flood or snow.
If I knew, I would give you my star
to shine for you wherever you are
I would take off my armor of steel
And all of the love in my heart reveal
If I knew
But I do not
So for now it will stay under lock
You have the key if you choose
to open my heart or to refuse.
If I knew you would understand my fears
not judging but patiently showing you cared
I would show you my secret places source of my tears
Swim in the pools of my joy
as it spills over on the chair
where you are seated
As I crown your thrown
Devoting my love to you alone
But I can’t do that
For I do not know
If your love will come . . . .
And go.
Fantastic! One of my favorite poems of all time. You put the feelings I've had so many times into words that capture those emotions so elquently!