(i am dirt, six feet below the ground
i don’t exist, they only pretend i’m alive)
i would spend a whole day inside this mind
but i’d be so better off just left behind
imagine me gone, because i want to disappear
i’m already dead, just don’t want to be here
(life is black, a hole that sucks me under
filled with hate, that overflows this empty cup)
please just turn away, i would pity those who enter
because nobody wants to step inside this circle
all i am is just a tightly closed shell
that one day may open, but for now i stay sealed
you are the flower among the dirt
i am the dirt among the flowers
the thorn on your rose, that creates all the pain
the crack in the diamond, that makes it all so flawed
you think you’re the dirt, but you’re the most beautiful flower
i wish there existed a way for you to see the truth
i wish these doors would open to show what’s behind
but only our thoughts tear each other open and apart
i know you’re the flower, but you’re sure it’s a lie
the mirror controls your mind, the truth is in my eyes
every single thing lies out of my reach
and every death in life causes this decay
we’re worlds apart, but so close together
ripping and tearing at ourselves to try to make it right
but it only makes the problem grow worse
we’re both the flowers, who one day shall grow out of this dirt
all this time spent, tearing myself apart to make it right
i can’t realize that these mistakes can’t be reversed
all this life spent, trying to fix what can’t be changed
everything stays the same, i can’t put myself back together
i’m lost, but you can’t find me
i can’t even find myself this time
i can’t correct these flaws
the more i pick at it, the hole gets deeper
inside our mind, we see ourselves as wilted
to try become the pure image, we self destruct ourselves
for only in lies can the truth be found
and only in this hell can we find the true heaven
Wow, this one totally blew me away. The way you describe your emotions here is so powerful. My favorite line is:
"you are the flower among the dirt
i am the dirt among the flowers
the thorn on your rose, that creates all the pain
the crack in the diamond, that makes it all so flawed"
I love the contrast between the flower and the dirt. It really gives an image to what you are describing. You can feel the struggle that you put into your writing. Well done.
.:Kaela:.