I wish I were beautiful

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Depression Poems

A glimmer of tears from her eyes

Such darkness--reoccurring

Resurfacing the feeling of nothingness

And admiration for others



What would it be like,

To know the world as a whole?

To think that attraction is known,

By all...

All but one.



I will stay as I am,

Loyal and alone to this love.



The arising question is,

Does he feel the same?

Is there the same fire burning inside,

The same love, committment, and truth?



Or is there more?  

Somewhere far from the corners of my mind,

Is there light eternal?



Is forever to be overused,

Or to be as real as the breath of life?

For it has been near two years,

And how can it be false?



The words spoken,

May contradict the heart---

But for the life of me,

For every beat of the heart within me...

I wish to whatever power,

That the words are as true as purity.



He tells me,

Convinces me

And holds me close...

But something today

Is eating away

At the happiness I usually hold



The fear was great,

As it continues to reign

Overpowering my soul...



Please let it leave,

So I can be whole again

So my lips may turn

Up to the sky,

Instead of welcoming tears.



I wish I were beautiful...

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I hate feeling this way... my poems then turn to crap.

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