Broken Heart

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Depression

Why did you have to leave me?

Why did you have to go?

I miss our happy times,

Miss your most cherished moments together.

Why did you do this to me?

Why didn't you just stay?

I miss our happy times,

Miss your gentle voice, your name.

Why did you have to hurt me?

Why didn't you talk to me?

I miss you, your thoughts, your feelings;

Miss your sense of humour.

Why doesn't this all make sense?

Where's the love we used to have?

I miss the "Us" we used to be,

Miss your hugs and passionate kisses.

Why don't you show up when I request it?

Why don't you wipe away my tears?

I miss the times we've been together,

Miss the millions of tears you wiped away.

When was the last time we were together?

When was the last time love made sense?

I cry every evening because we're not together,

Cry as I listen to music that reminds me of you.

Did you ever wonder if were were meant to be?

Did you ever notice the love in my eyes for you?

I cry as I think of our times spent together,

Cry because our togetherness isn't real anymore.

I wish I knew the answers to my many questions,

Wish that they could be answered for me.

Everytime I sigh, I think of you-

Every song I listen to reminds me of you-

Everytime I cry, I miss you-

Everytime I'm alone in a room, you're there-

Everytime I cry, I miss you-

Everything I see, I think of you-

Everytime I think of you, I miss you....

Why did you have to betray me?

Why did you show that you didn't care?

Now whenever I think of you,

I fel my life is about to end-

Feel my life as no worth;

Just because you left me,

Just becaus you didn't care,

Just becaue we were never meant to be,

Just because you don't love me anymore.

I take out my coinpurse,

Looking longingly at the two razor blades

I've placed there,

Wondering if you'd even care

If I cut myself so badly that

I was nearer to death.

Yet I will never forget your loving ways,

Your ways of telling me you care,

The time you saved me from killing myself,

Saving my life from me getting anorexia-

Everything you've ever taught me about love.

But knowing these thoughts would never help,

I take out one of those blades and

Get in the shower, water real hot,

And cut 6 times on my left wrist,

Feeling nothing but betrayal from you.

Since you've betrayed me,

I will never love again, yet live again-

I will face everything but the pain,

And live everything in my life

Very dark and full of depressing moments.

Every evening I cry because you betrayed me,

Shutting out thoughts of all our happy times,

And interfacing thoughts of the painful times.

Wearing nothing but black and Gothic jewelry

And listening to Gothic music,

I continue cutting because of you-

You betrayed me, and I will never

Face the fact that you're no longer

Part of my life and you're gone.

One evening as I'm cutting,

I decide to cut even deeper than before,

Hoping that my death will come quickly.

Cutting deeper with no other thoughts

But your betrayal, I dig the razor blade

Deeper into my wrist, the blood

Running down my arm in thick lines of red.

I don't cry out because I don't feel

The sharpness of the razor blade-

Your betrayal has brought me to

The road of death-

As I cut, I'm slowly drifting

Away, dying as the blood runs

Down my arms; I slip away to my

Death from loss of blood and your betrayal.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I wrote this poem because I felt very betrayed by my boyfriend.

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i have been
thru that to ;*(