Windows black curtains drawn
Hurting stops after dawn
Wanted love, wanted joy
Didn’t want to be a toy
Wanted laughter wanted not
But sad and tears is what I got
Was I so bad? Am I to blame?
Was I the reason for the shame?
I’m old and gray here today
And yet this pain won’t go away.
Sometimes I sit and wonder why
Why wasn’t I allowed to die?
I still want to even today
Even though I’m old and gray