I am upset
This sanity upsets me
Upsets to the point of obsession with myself
With the distorted unfinished crossword self
I call it a crossword because each word is crossed
Out of my reality, out of my picture imperfect second by second time capsulated dilated ego
Expanding, expounding, pounding on the back door to the cave hiding the scent covered bookmarks my lover lost when passing through the inner pool of street smarts
Combinations create rebellion inside the monotone backside of every mind
And my lover relied on books, thinking it was possible to skip past the sticky waters
Without losing a piece
Now back to square one, square two is somewhere between the lines between the pages between the heartcover untitled manuscripts
The fingers hold them so tightly
So gently grasping the liquid dripping mystery ridden pages
My lover knows the answer is there somewhere, just needs to find the clock with the second hand matching the proper time set of the mind set
Unstructured memorabilia - calls it a memory of the future of a moment somewhere expected, with hope on the leash, says I'm there standing, with my hand across my home touching the only existence made possible by breath
And my breath is the key to the exit out of this mess
Says we all live for these moments and ours will never get crossed out
Emily
Emily
I understand how you feel.
I know all about "unfinished manuscripts"
This poem is one of my favorites