I wrote you something
Plagiarized, started as a poem
Came out as a song
Got lost along the way from here to the Hyatt to the Shelton dorm room to Inwood
But I wrote it anyway
Thinking I can fix the winter and the rain
And tomorrow won’t be the same breathless morning
Running to miss that call, still half awake
It never came through and I knew better, tho’ still cradled the thought and I’d do it again
Still stranded
In the miracle of yesterday
Breathless – tryin’ to make it and make everything right
Between Godlessness and Maryland and you and me there’s always Austin
And him, and her, and him and her, and all of us
And my cat snuggling soft and kind
Lookin’ up and seemingly vaguely saying I wish you knew the way
How I wish you knew the way and knew what I know,
This zen situation I have going on right now
Meow
I don’t, so I let it all go
Press tight this bible,
I wish so, too, on days like this
When everything hits
And I’m stranded
Desert central heat of Central Street, Watertown
Stranded
Boston suburbia, a cubicle of a house
Empty of vehicles, empty driveways, empty trees
Stranded
Afternoon blue sky and the security of unpaid bills the phone not ringing anymore but there is something nagging hard and I don’t want it to let go
But I am stranded
Between the philosophy bookshelves and the AIM conversation logs and her and you and him and me and there is something bigger than all this here,
Bigger than the cathair covered chair, hidden there, in the dusk of dust underneath the computer tabletop but bigger than that, and all of us
Are missing it
And someone’s breathless chest is hearing it and heaving soft
And tugging at my wishful shirt and saying, how yes,
I’m stranded, too
And this poem is for you
6 years too late, probably
6 years too late, probably the only one
that could have maybe
nah