I'm Sorry

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Family

I held you in my arms,
watched as you slept so peacefully.

I kissed your nose,
watched you learn to crawl.

I sang to you,
held you when you cried.

You gave my life meaning,
gave me a reason to wake up.

You taught me to love,
that I was special,
if only in your eyes.

I'm sorry I couldn't give you a better life,
I'm sorry I had to leave you.

The hardest thing I've ever done,
is walk away, seeing you face in my head.

Chocolate brown eyes,
a beautiful little smile.

I pray those eyes stay bright,
that you never know a moment of sadness.

I'm sorry I couldn't be a better mommy,
that I couldn't give you the life you deserve.

I'm sorry we couldn't be a family,
I tried, I wanted us to be happy.

Someday I hope you'll understand,
someday you'll know the truth.

I'm sorry I couldn't do better,
I tried baby, I wanted the best for you.

I can only hope you'll be happy,
hope you find a better life,
know the meaning of home.

I hope you know the beauty of love,
the meaning of family.

I love you, my Hailey girl,
and I hope you always know that.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

D/t: Hailey Elizabeth Calderara I love you, my sweet darling little girl. I hope you understand one day why I did what I did. I hope one day I can explain, that you'll forgive me. I hope most of all for your happiness.

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