We started as friends,
then you told me you liked me,
I was so surprised, I hadn't guessed.
We dated but I pushed you away,
you learned of my moods and expressions.
I'm sorry I'm so complicated,
sorry I'm such a mess,
sorry I can't let my walls down.
You've seen me at my worst,
and made me laugh when I wanted to hurt,
held me when I wanted to be alone.
Around you I feel safe,
you always take care of me when I can't.
I don't quite know how to say thank you to you,
the words don't sound quite right,
like I should say more than that.
You mean more to me than a freind,
more than a brother, more than a lover,
but I can't quite figure out what.
I can be moody, cold, or apathetic,
and yet I break down around you.
My whole life is falling around me,
want to give up on it all,
but you're still there beside me,
telling me to keep fighting.
When I want to give up, you won't let me,
when I want to hurt, you protect me.
All my life I've fallen into an endless abyss,
with nothing to catch me,
but then you come along, and I feel safe.
Thank you for breaking my fall,
for always being there to help me back to my feet.