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Writings to my soul with my situation
I want to write so much
Let my thoughts out
But I didn't know where to begin
This cyclic supply
damages and regresses me
This addiction
has you all the while
drowing me
Expressing my fears/feelings
It always ends in me feeling disheartened
knowing you aren't giving me
your full attention, a safe space for dialogue, and understanding
I'm the only one constantly hurt by your actions
I'm lied to
Gaslighted,
Manipulated,
Molded to the girl you can use
You have made me think this isn't that bad since you still love med
Omitted truth is a lie
I don't believe you
trust you
you still lie to me
where is the integrity
You say this has nothing to do with me
then why do I feel in despair
I am not enough for you
You have made that clear
When will you make a change
When will you wake up
I am fighting with myself daily
minimizing the pain
the hurt
the depression
the anger
the pain
I'm fighting with reality
You are so good at pretending
You are so good at telling me you love me
Love does not lie
Love does not cheat
Love does not disrespect
Love will make you grow
make you heal
make you enjoy life
We are no longer on the same level
maybe we never were
there is so much I want to say
there is so much i want to grow from
I feel like i'm standing
in the middle of the dessert
waiting for you
to help save us
But your too wrapped up in self absorption
your ego
your phone
girls
I'm waiting for you to leap
I'm tired of being the one chasing after you
picking up the broken pieces of my heart while telling you everything will be fine
You are shattering my heart
I am trying to repair yours
At this point it is all up to you
How does this go
How does this end
How will this begin
