Isn’t me

I'm left in a position 

I want to feel fought for 

I want to feel loved 

I feel this love is drifting apart 

 

how do we get back to who we use to be 

when I was your priority 

 

the attention you get from others must feel nice

i can understand  

I try to comprehend the reason why you do what you do

I'm sure it's hard for you to hate me 

you love me 

you love the idea of me 

the mom 

the career woman 

the future spouse 

but your no longer in love with me 

for that you feel guilty 

 

doing all these shady things hoping to get caught

hoping I will end it since you can't 

you don't have the strength 

i wish you could communicate what you need what you want

I want to comprehend what you need 

even if it isn't me