I'm leaving

What’s beyond the Horizon?

I’d like to know…

But with a fear to stay

And with a fear to go

I have no place that I call “home”.



I can’t stay here,

I need to get away.

I’ll remember you in dreams,

And add your name as I pray.

Our paths may cross again some day.



I’d plant my treeroots here

For the sake of old times,

Despite the bad memories,

Of all our love’s crimes.

Forget the tears - yours and mine.



The sea is calling me,

The woods and mountain paths.

I’ll discard my thoughts of the future,

And all of my past.

None of my loves were meant to last.



Given wings for freedom,

I was born to live alone,

To thrive as a river,

Passing by idle stones.

I’ve got all I need to make it on my own.



Will you remember me

As I walk this solo road?

Or will you pass me by if we meet again,

Your gaze so icy cold?

Well, I’ll keep you in my heart, to have and to hold.



Don’t change my mind,

My future’s set.

And seven years more,

if I’d stayed you'd have left.

But thank you for all of those times we laughed.



Your kisses still linger

On my lips,

My cheeks still tingle

From your fingertips,

My heart and soul, your hand still grips.



I’ll let go,

And wipe away those feelings.

Confused minds often contort

Words and meanings.

The tides are changing,

Seasons rearranging,

I’m pulling away,

And leaving…

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This is probably my favorite poem I've written. It really did explain my feelings, and still sort of does. At times, when I want to pull away and leave everything and everyone behind and live in a world with only myself and challenges I can face, this is how I say it. I wrote this on the way home from EFY in the car with David actually. He sat in the front and I was in the middle, so I just sat there and wrote. We had gotten into a bad fight before EFY, then had no choice but to spend the week with each other, so afterward, we were sort of friends again, but I kept wanting to tell myself and him as well that I was just...pulling away. There was no use in trying again.

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