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When I do something wrong,
I immediately feel overwellming sadness,
and dissapointment in myself,
expecially when my mother gets involved.
Her praise is something I live off of,
and when she gets dissapointed in me,
I tend to cry my eyeballs out.
I hate it when she is dissapointed in me,
since I basically need to do
what i can, to make her proud of me.
I usually tend to learn
from the mistakes I made, immediately,
but sometimes it takes
me a couple of tries.
When I do something wrong,
I get really mad at myself.
I grill myself on why I did it,
over and over again,
just to try and understand.

I hate it when I do something wrong,
it makes me feel crazy inside.
I stay upset for several days,
and sometimes, for several weeks.
The pain builds up inside,
as it tears me up on the inside.
When I do something wrong,
I beat myself up over it.
I get mad at myself,
and get more hurt overtime.
So, even if I am not caught,
I end up telling on myself because
I cannot stand having my mother
not proud of me, her being upset with me.
When I do something wrong,
I know that it's wrong,
and feel bad about it.
I don't know why I react this way,
but maybe it's a good thing,
something that could help me
do what is right.