You find god in the strangest places

I found god that day,
And in the strangest way.

Hiding in a friend that's given up hope,
Just days away from submitting to the rope.

"I have a plan" she would say.
"A plan to take all my pain away!"
"In a few days I'll be able to fly,
Because along with me, the weight of my burden will die!"

She just looks at me and smiles,
though I see she's trying not to cry.
Her stare just goes for miles,
And, I know I already asked, but all that comes out of my mouth is "...why?"

Then she breaks.

"You know what I did!" She begins to sob,
"I've never been loved, I've always been just a selfish snob!"

And as I try to deny the deeds she's claimed she's committed,
She doesn't hear a word. Defeat lies in her eyes,
She's already submitted...

And... I don't know what you would do if you we're in my place,
But, I kinda ran out of options sooo... I smacked her across the fucking face...

"If you die, your burdens just become one for another!"
"Think of your mother!"
"Your family your friends, all that just ends!"
"And you just want to throw it all away?"
"You really are a snob."
"So go ahead, just sit there, sulk and sob."

Then she finally looks up as if in her head is playing amazing grace,
And that's when I found it.
On that day, I found god in the expression on her face.
An expression of hope, of a second chance, like heaven just threw down a rope.
And while covered with tears, it was so bittersweet.
She then showed me a true smile and rose to her feet.

I found god that day.
That was the day I started to pray...
Heh, isn't that just the most peculiar way?

-The Hope (R.I.P)

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I honestly wish I could still pray but I realized there's no god out there willing to hear me.

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SSmoothie's picture

Yes there is, you just have

Yes there is, you just have to help save yourself, this is very good writing, I enjoyed it, sorry you feel so alone, because you're not, HugSS :) I'm in a shit place right now and I've just thrown it up to god, to the universe, so far it's working, as well as me helping myself with communication.

Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's life SIMS, but not as we know it" - ¡$&am

9inety's picture

very thought provoking

you my young friend are doing it the best way you can
like John Lennon said,
"Whatever gets you through the night"
it's all right"


"One of the best results of life, is the torment of love"

Dylan Eliot

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Thank you

Thank you

Verbal Verbatim