My lack of ambition is due to the hours I keep.
All the lessons I learn are learned as I sleep.
I lose more of me every minute.
Or so it feels.
Every hour awake is wasted,
Or used to get wasted.
I can no longer pinpoint the hour, the minute,
When I stopped minding that my life was a waste.
All the dreams I used to have are up for grabs.
I don't need them anymore.
Those kind of dreams make me feel like a fool.
Who am I to chase those idealistic fantasies?
I have nothing to offer them,
They are no longer available to the likes of me.
All useful lessons become unlearned as morning creeps,
And a lack of these things prevent me to sleep.
Very inspirational and you really set the mood in this piece.