Motivation, i know not what it is,
But what it means,
To be locked inside, unable to scream,
Nothing to throw at walls,
which are not there.
I know not how to say these things,
All i can do is write them down,
And place them in a drawer,
to be ignored.
I know not how to fight my causes,
All i can do is write.
And think of them, in bed at night.
And I could not find the words,
If you were to shove them down my throat.
I'd blush, and stumble, disintegrate,
As i know not what it is to shout,
My heart does not pour out...
Such liquid would freeze,
If I thought to ever open my mouth,
As i know not how to stand before you,
Naked, exposed, with my feelings on show,
I know i could not do.
And i know not how to stand up for myself,
All i do is stand against myself,
I threw the rock that knocked me down.
I know not how to love myself,
Or how to express another emotion,
Than this tired old one i always do,
Each word i write is overused...
And i know not how to stand out,
Without feeling discomfort.
Knowing exactly how to fit in,
Yet i know not how to play pretend.
I'm not the one that you should ask,
I know no answers to your questions.