The first thing I hear tonight
Is the whine of an ambulance
And I realize that
Someone’s night is worse than mine
I thought I was safe
Until I read what
You said to him and
I just couldn’t trust you again
I wish I was back at the ocean
Standing in the cool breeze
Tasting the salt in the air
Before I couldn’t stand you.
Before I felt like you
Were taking over
My breaths are cut short
Almost suffocating in your body heat
I am a werewolf
Who locks himself in his room
To spare his friends and family and
Any others he may encounter
I sit and wait it out
Wait for sleep to take over
And in the morning
I know it will be better
I will emerge healthy
My bad tempers will
Leave me and everyone else
Alone
This is why I can’t be happy
Something is always
Hitting me in the back of the head
Wanting out. Wanting to be felt
Sometimes I just can’t live with myself
I want to be a strong person
For my friends, who need it,
And my family, who expect it
I thought I was moving far away
But you still fill my thoughts
Everyday I hurt, ache
From both missing you, and hating you
I look at this painting in my room
And as my friend asks,
“How does it make you feel?”
All I can think of is you
You’ve scattered my thoughts
Like the subjects of this poem.
Cut up into puzzle pieces
Waiting to be put together
God, I don't know your story but the restlessness of love and loss is so universal that I can relate, if at very least, to the emotions displayed in this piece.
My favourite sections:
I sit and wait it out
Wait for sleep to take over
And in the morning
I know it will be better
I will emerge healthy
My bad tempers will
Leave me and everyone else
Alone
This is why I can’t be happy
Something is always
Hitting me in the back of the head
Wanting out. Wanting to be felt
I thought I was moving far away
But you still fill my thoughts
Everyday I hurt, ache
From both missing you, and hating you
You’ve scattered my thoughts
Like the subjects of this poem.
Cut up into puzzle pieces
Waiting to be put together
Nicely done. Truly.