I've taken a bite of the apple- Off of the forbidden tree,
So what I do now won't matter- If He hasn't forgiven me.
People tell me to repent- But I don't regret what I've done,
I've made many mistakes- But I wouldn't take back not one.
Because the things that I've done- Have made me who I am,
I get pulled underwater- But I came up and swam.
Been put in many jams- I've had my back to the wall,
I came out swinging- And so far- I've made it through it all.
But If I should fall- As I have done before,
I'll pick myself up- Dust myself off- And go at it once more.
You see- I've sent my words to him- And still no reply,
And still you expect me to not wonder why?
When the demons showed their face- He turned away,
And when I asked him what happen- He had nothing to say.
And when the darkness of the night- Continued through the day,
I believed in Him- That He'd show me the way.
"He never gives a man more than he can take",
But I cracked under the pressure- It was more than I could take.
But the question that I ask- Was it all part of his plan?
Was it all His intentions- To make me a stronger man.
Did He not give me guidance- So that I could find it on my own?
Or did he just desert me- And leave me all alone.
That's what's wrong- Because I still don't know,
I have to keep going- But which direction to go?
The Devil's at my door- Saying that we should be friend's,
Telling me God will not forgive- Until I apologize for my sins.
And if he is telling the truth- Then I'm hell bound forever,
'Cuz I don't regret my actions- Not then- not now- not ever.
Michael C. Lucas