How is it possible to feel so alone in a world with so many people,
To feel like life’s defeated you- Beaten you,
To feel like the beast has eaten you.
No friends and no foes- It’s so slow,
So much pain and no one knows- I guess that’s how it goes.
Just goes to show you- You can only count on yourself,
No one else- You’re the only one who knows what you’ve felt.
Strangled by Life’s belt- You can only hope you will get well,
What you wouldn’t do- Your soul you would sell,
Just to feel better- You’d write God a letter,
Asking for some relief- Practicing all your beliefs,
Listening to the preacher preach- Hoping it will be brief.
So many people around you- But the loneliness won’t leave.
Praying for a reprieve- Or a re-emergence of self-esteem.
It sometimes start to seem- Like Life is just a scheme.
To rob you of yourself- And everything you are,
Everything you ever will be- And convince you everything is too far.
Out of your reach- It’s pointless it seems,
To even begin to try- All you do is cry,
And in your bed you lie,
Staring into the sky,
Letting it all pass you by,
Wondering and asking why.
You let out a sigh,
As you calmly close your eyes,
And say your silent good-bye,
You lay there stiffly- Wishing that you’d die.
Michael .C Lucas