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The Land
In the land of eternal darkness is where my mind continues to roam,
Searching for a route or a passage way home.
Controversy circles me as I move along my journey,
Along with getting myself right there’s many lessons I’m learning.
Never ending story of a kid and his battles,
Trying find out who he is and what really matters.
I’m surrounded with nothing but guilt and dismay,
It’s not the way I wanted it but I know it’s gotta be this way.
I see now that hiding and turning away from my fears,
Is exactly the thing that has led me to here.
Here being this place, this place in which I’m trapped,
You call it my mind but I call it my world that has collapsed.
The debris is still around and the confusion is still vivid,
And even though it’s hard if it wasn’t this way I’d miss it.
It’s all I have ever known and it has made me the person I am today,
And when I write or talk about it it’s what gives me the shit to say.
I am not a happy kid because my Life is still a mess,
But I am a hell of alot better now, at least I’m not depressed.
But I am still grief stricken for I have once before died,
Everyone around me watched the glow fade from my eyes.
It even felt as if I watched myself from the side,
I sat down and watched me die inside my mind.
Maybe you know what I’m saying or talking about,
But if you don’t then sorry but you’ll never figure it out.
But for now I sit back and lose myself in music,
Almost exactly the way that you’re doing.
Reading this poetry with a truly touched heart,
Knowing that you’re not alone even though we’re so far apart.
Michael C. Lucas
