Unlucky in love

 Yes it is true I have being unlucky in love everyone seems to leave me and I feel so all alone I know I have James but I know he loves me but i am not sure what kind of love it is and I don't want to be a burden on him because of my health I try to write poems but I feel like I can't even rhyme I just need to write feelings down now I miss someone that I have talked to for years and it's hard and with James I don't know if he loves me the way I think he does or if he is just trying to be a Christian and help me but I am totally in love with him and I miss him so much when he is not here.

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I love that you write you

I love that you write you struggles what a beautiful and generous way to share! I think back through all the times I've thought I was or was not in love or not in the way I thought, and each time the best part was not really knowing, that pulse quicken in those tiny moments of accidental touches, then spending a whole afternoon trying to figure out if it meant something, or that certain look or that great belly laugh exchanged... beauty in the tiniest of things excitement, that invariably because of my lack of patience destroyed what could have been by pushing for an answer or waiting 5 years to manifest the deep passion only to be torn apart by circumstance, and finally going through so many ups and downs round and rounds, mistakes and follies never reallynseeing the person infront of me for who they actually were and then seeing it and still loving it anyway and vice versa and still it rocks on not always knowing despite all the declarations with nothing but the evidence that they are still here living in the way that is needed not always as wanted but occasionally there are brilliant moments of passion and blinding bouts of perfection, and I have leaned that happiness is in fleeting moments, and the darker the down time, the brighter the sparks! May many more sparks light up your days! Best blessingss


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."