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Sitting Here Alone
Sitting here alone
My mind starts to wonder
Where are you now?
Are you thinking of me?
My arms year to hold you close
To feel your embrace
I can't get you off my mind
No matter how much I try
My lips want to feel your soft, gentle kiss
I close my eyes
Do I ever cross your mind?
Wishing you would come though the door
Sweep me off my feet like you had
So many times before
I want to hear you say, "I love you"
But my soul knows I won't hear those words
Why can't I make you fall in love with me?
When will I be happy in love?
Only time will tell
So, I sit here alone
Love
You spill your heart out on paper.
Lost love is something that breaks the heart and destroys the spirit for a time. I was devorced thirty years ago and never thought love was possible again. But boy was I wrong. My biggest shock was in learning we can love again. I loved again. Nearly married three times over the last thirty years. Fear of marraige stopped it every time. They were willing to live together. I wasnt. I needed the marraige in my relationships but was too afraid of it after my first miserable one. So three more times I left love and felt lost, alone, afraid of never knowing love again. Ahhhhhh but we are endowed with love and it needs expression and it needs a home. Am I in love today? You betcha, with my first and only true love. We dated when we were young and my family was against me seeing her so eventually I moved away rather then be man enough to simply break up with her. We ran into each other periodically over the decades and admitted that we loved each other but one or both were always marraid at those times. Today, neither is marraid and marraige will never be for us, but love is there, contentment is there, trust, is there, and we feel secure in ourselves finally. She has her home, I have mine and we enjoy each other. Will we end up together? I suspect that one day we will tire of things as they are and decide to finally cement our lives together, but for now marraige fears hold us back and contentment in our seniour years with how things are keep us from changing it. We are grandparents today, and soon I will be a great grandfather. Is it correct for us to join together today? Who cares! We have waited half a century and amid the follies of life we still love each other. This time we do as we please and family will understand or not. It is their concern, mine no longer
You can and will feel those feelings again, when you least expect it love will raise her wings and wrap you in her embrace once more, and you will be content. Then I would love reading your works and see the changes in you.