she picks me up
just before eleven,
talk over our favorite thai,
and the last time for years
I will ride down this highway like this
the butterfly house
there is something that makes it art
me leaving home and
all those wings
we walk through
a piece of st. louis
(the last piece of st. louis
somehow I keep having to tell myself that)
and the years paint all these colors
on the butterflies,
on my hands
and the unforgiving heat rises from all the pictures we take
and I remember all of this from when I was little
but also none of it
I am seeing it from a new height and
a new angle
they tell us
we can release a new one into the room
hand us a jar-
she is a pink rose
dark all down her back,
reddish pink spots underneath
so bright they look neon
we open the jar and she does not leave
we spend ten minutes gently tapping her out
into the open,
onto a flower
we spend so long
watching her sit unmoving-
this one is apparently her favorite
but I don’t think she’s realized
what you taught me
the world is opening up for her and
you will still be waiting
the world is bigger than where she puts her feet
I look up down at my mother
and there she is,
the one I have always wanted to be,
smaller than me and still just as important
and we are running the world
from opposite sides of it
and we are crying and cheering
as much as before
and we are still back in the butterfly house
just as much ourselves as we have always been
as long as she’s known me
I turn over my shoulder as we leave,
looking for the pink rose.
suddenly she is in the sky.
and I am too.
"the butterfly house there is
"the butterfly house
there is something that makes it art
me leaving home and
all those wings"
The symbolism and delicate genius of this work will leave anyone who has ever had this kind of connection with their mother breathless.
I'm completely smitten by this one-of-a-kind Mother's Day tribute, perhaps one of the best I've ever read..