I keep taking all of this in,
hypnotized in the magic hour,
and not remembering in the morning.
How do I keep
this gold sky, blue sun,
so much I don’t know but it doesn’t matter in the dark
in a place with so many memories?
Sometimes they catch up with me,
climb on my shoulders,
now I am panting and I just know this hill is the last thing I will see and I am wishing I would have said everything to you instead of nothing
but I didn’t say nothing, I just said nothing out loud
and sometimes I think this is the only way I can speak
but I have so many memories.
For a second I think most of them are regrets
and then I read back through them and
somehow lightning hit me and I feel the scars
but it left a spark.
I can take in all this past
and write about the world at home.