I suddenly sit
here thinking is it
really so far if
it doesn’t hurt my feet
to walk there, I
should have known
by the way
you looked at
me.
I should
have known how it
would feel to lose. Lose
a race, lose you, lose
me. Is it
really so bad
not to want, not to
have a clue who
I am or what I’m
doing, just
to want things to stay
the same?
I should
have known a lot of
things, like heartbreak
before it hit
me. I should
have known how fast
this wind would
carry me. Will
you hold the bravest
rarest most fragile
parts of me even when
they don’t look like
love?
Loss
Melancholia has beset
me again, shattered
remembrance again, lightly
transformed each breeze
that scrapes past skin
into stillness and loss
becomes vacuousness.
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slc