All the arms just push me out
There aren’t locks but the doors stay shut
I have no hands
I have no voice
I can’t open the silence
and even when I can
I spend much too long picking apart these lightning fires
I have a word a touch a home
for a moment
then I’m lost again.
Sometimes
Once
I found myself
driving
(scary, I know)
but really I am starting to understand why when I got into this box of metal
my mother always wanted me to tell her when I got somewhere safe
because sometimes once I realized
I hold my life in my hands
It would take no hesitation
to let go
to pull the wheel to the side
if I wanted
it could be over before I tell you the punchline
maybe I would be better at being alone if I had let go all those times.
But the thing is
I don’t want to.