If I invite you in you will still be a stranger.
I am not one to tell you who I am,
what we could be.
I toe the risk line but never slip.
If I tell you I am usually buried in blue
and look into your eyes
you should feel lucky.
Maybe my hands could hold you
but I’ll never let them,
an evening passes and the whispers say
anything hurts less than the quiet.
But I am used to hurting that way,
I will not throw myself off the ledge
even when the flames lick my skin.
I do not know what it means to be alone
because I swallow it every day and there is nothing special about its taste.
I wake up every morning
and there is a guillotine on my tongue,
it does not let me be awake for the most perfect parts of today.
It does not let me open the door to strangers.