Sometimes I think maybe when you said
you would come back
you meant when I was drowning
and once you had buried all the branches
in the perfect snow.
You would come back like a promise
I barely recognize.
You would come back and tell me to
survive.
I bury the keys to all my doors
and leave the silver in shatters,
right now
locked is better than overflowing.
Sometimes I think maybe when you said
love
you meant war.
There were certainly
enough casualties
to fill a textbook,
my heart my head my hands
someday the slices will grow back
and the rivers will fill
and there will be nothing left you have seen.