When I lie with you so long
I trip over the stumbling stars in your eyes
and you don’t even know how hard you try,
but when my cracks show
your eyes reflect things that don’t work.
I am a tourist in my own skin on the verge of breaking down
I melt into puddles and
I turn sticky saltwater into lonely and lonely into aimless and aimless into uselessly busy,
I turn lonely into a lifestyle.
And I know I built this tower around you
but you’re a terrible altar,
an amazing cliff.
I will fall with my valuables but won’t give them to you.
I will set the cracks in my own arms and lean on you.