It's the valley bathed in roses
That sends me backwards,
Straight into pain and shame and ecstasy.
It's this failure that makes me laugh and weep
To lose control by way of a straight line
I never lost sight of.
It's the well that springs from me
And tells me that I live,
This is my joy and my madness.
It's these months of self-denial leading to this rush
Of hurtful release in perfect irony and defeat.
It's the loss to myself that brings me pride and despair,
This subtlety beneath shirtsleeves.
It's the realization that I was never winning at all
Nor ever shall.
Reminds me a Plath poem that you showed me once...I didn't understand it then. Powerful.